Thursday, December 4, 2014

I can never feel reassured.

Our first appointment was a surprise. We met with the nurse and then my OB, then they told me that they were sending me back for an ultrasound. I immediately became nervous becauseiI wasn't expecting one until the next visit.

The tech came and got us and then informed me that she was doing an abdominal ultrasound (which struck me as odd). I was under the impression that transvaginal should be done until second trimester.

She said she would switch to transvaginal if she couldn't find a heartbeat. Luckily she found my baby and told me I was measuring 6w6d. Then she had me hold my breath twice. The first time it looked like the heart rate was 110bpm, but the second time she announced it was 109bpm and that it would get faster.

Now, I originally thought this sounded fine so early but upon telling a few people, I realiEd that it was very low. The LOW end of what people told me they had at that stage was 120!so I called the nurse back the next day and she told me for six weeks 109 was at the low end. My heart sunk. I told her I should he 6w4d and measured 6w6d and she said "Even though you're at the very low end of normal, try not to worry".

😑 Are you freaking kidding me?

Someone told me that maybe an abdominal ultrasound wouldn't "pick up" the heartbeat as well as a transvaginal, so maybe it was off, but my nurse crushed those dreams by telling me it should pick it up just as well.

She also didn't offer me a follow-up, which shocked me since I found three people at my gestation who were above 110bpm but below 120bpm and they were offered a follow-up and told it was low.

I've found horror stories and success stories, unfortinatldt it seems to be around 50/50 so I am of course upset and don't know what to expect.

I am trying not to think the worst but at this point it is really hard not to.

I don't know what I will do if we lose this baby, too.

2 comments:

  1. I'm due July 20th, and had my ultrasound at 6w4d. The heartbeat was only at 104, but the ultrasound lady said it looked good and I was measuring on time. As far as I know I am still pregnant and everything is fine. But there is nothing I can do about it anyway so it doesn't pay to worry. Being on the low end doesn't always mean anything bad (my initial beta was on the low end but it quickly caught up). If you are really concerned though try to get that follow up scan. Best of luck!

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    1. Thanks - that does make me feel a little bit better. How are things going for you right now?

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